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There are not many things in the world that hurt more than the fact that the person you wake up with every morning doesn’t want you, doesn’t admire you, doesn’t find you attractive. It is utterly difficult not to be cuddled back when all you try to do is to gain a little bit of warmth and love.
Tom Perrotta has written a book and Todd Field directed a film – “Little Children”. Sarah is a young, average looking mother and wife. When you look in her eyes you can see the longing. She is missing real life, full of excitement, feelings, truth. What she gets instead is her husband – a man that masturbates thinking about a woman whose name is definitely not Sarah, and a bunch of “friends” who don’t even understand the simplest of emotions. She has nobody to talk or refer to. When she meets Brad, a great looking single father who is apparently trying to pass his bar exams, she falls into a freaked out relationship. Obviously, she does not love him, but the fact that somebody finds her attractive, that somebody wants to touch her and that she can do something other than watching her husband wanking in front of the computer screen – that reassures her, makes her feel like a woman again.
Brad’s married too. He has got a marvellous, loving wife and a great son who looks up to his father. Doesn’t have to and doesn’t really want to work. He’s quite comfy with the life he’s leading. When he crosses paths with Sarah – it’s just one of these things that men do to be able to have memories. He is being a little boy who wants a candy AND a lollipop but aren’t all affair tales the same?
There are other wonderfully shown characters in this so meaningful feature but I have concentrated on Sarah as I think I can empathise with her the most.
Funny thing is, I want to shout at her, to her: hey girl! Do this! Don’t do that! C’mon, you are a great gal, why are you letting people shit on you?! But at the same time, I know that she knows all that. But sometimes you just find yourself in a position where you cannot move. You are stuck and you don’t know how to get out, even if everybody else around you gives you all kinds of advice.
Sometimes there’s just no way in any direction...