I've been recalling...

MASTURBATION

I have closed my eyes too soon
Only then did I realise
That living beyond the truth
Is not necessarily the option

I’m storming out of the box
Trying to deceive
Trying to forgive
Myself and them
The other them and me
Doesn’t work that way

First time I’ve seen his jaws
Clenched in this awkward position
But tonight last night tomorrow
Different story

The time has passed now
I’ve given birth to new wrinkles
Their sisters scars found my body their home

I pray

Pretending is what I can do best
Buying dreams measured in kilograms
Selling thoughts measured in millilitres
Lying that the skies are blue
And rainbows colourful

There is no faith nor hope
Engineers have altered the mechanism
I used to be quite a nice girl
Now all that is left
A huge pile of shit
And the Snow White
Dancing on my grave