I’ve been watching...

A few days ago I’ve been listening to the lecture by a Customs Officer. One of the subjects was smuggling drugs. Even though it’s something that we all hear about here or there – it made me shocked and extremely upset to learn about the “mules” and these who are in charge – ones that don’t even try taking any of the substances they sell because they know better. They make money, they steal, they kill. That’s what they do and they are very happy people. I wouldn’t care if they’ve done all the smuggling themselves – whatever... But they use people who don’t realise, who are not educated enough in the matter, who desperately need the money and who are generally quite naive.
Then I’ve watched a film – “Maria Full Of Grace”. A story about a seventeen year old Columbian girl (played beautifully by Catalina Sandino Moreno) whose life is turning upside down, who has to feed her family, who just found out that life can get even more complicated. I have never “felt” a movie so much before. Every second I was squeezing my man’s hand and I was whispering: “please...”
Life is full of Sophocles’ Antigonas choices. One has two ways to go – bad or worse. What do you do? We all make mistakes, all the time. The way I choose is to sit and think: a) am I going to hurt somebody but doing this? b) Am I going to hurt myself by doing this? c) Is that what my heart tells me to do? d) Is that what my brain tells me to do? Never does it happen that the answers are obvious. Well, if they were, I doubt there were choices to make.
I was wondering – what would I do in Maria’s shoes? I would get very depressed, for starters. But would I risk my life for money? No. Would I choose to stay and keep suffering? No. Maybe I’d become a prostitute, maybe an alcoholic, maybe... But there’s no way I would let some fucking twat, without balls and courage, smile smugly when I shit myself thinking if the little bag of cocaine in my stomach bursts now or maybe a few minutes later... Because my life belongs to me. That’s the first rule of choice making in Spiral Wisdom’s dictionary...