I've been ending...

Sometimes I say too much, sometimes I say too little. Never seems to be just right. Or maybe the internet is not for me. So thank you everybody for reading and I wish you all All The Best!

I've been writing...

Today
My Heartache
I am deaf and can’t read or write
You will draw a picture for me
And only then will I understand
The Meaning

I’ve been getting old...

Welcome. Wherever you are and whatever you have been doing last night – the world has got older and there’s nothing we can do about it. And again, everybody decides to do this or that this way or another. Yes. New Year’s Resolutions! Why does it never work? And why, if we know that it wouldn’t, do we still promise ourselves and our nearest and dearest that we would become so much better person in next few days? Won’t smoke, won’t drink, won’t steal, will study, will save money, will travel...
I decided to look at the past year optimistically this time. Of course, I could just have another breakdown and get drunk on champagne somewhere in the corner. But I couldn’t drink as I’m still ill. So I had to say my goodbyes to the past sober... And you know what? It’s ok. There have been difficult times and I got hurt and I cried. But there were great times too! When I couldn’t stop laughing and wanted those moments to last forever. As I am excellent with the erasing, I will try to forget about the bad things and remember only the great ones. Why not? And I am not making any resolutions this January. Because whatever will be, will be and I can only influence it up to the point.
So – don’t worry too much, smile when you can, see the good things around you and learn from the ones that leave scars. Because what else can you do?...
And I only wonder – where am I going to be spending the next New Year’s Eve? :)

I've been wishing...

I've been remembering...

The snow. Because it is, of course, gone. So here are the memories:

I've been snowing...

First time for about five years, I have seen snow again! :) I forgot how beautiful winter can be! A picture - soon :) But for now - enjoy the Christmas, be good to each other, treat people and animals the way you would like to be treated and see you in New Year! (How exciting... :) )!

I've been thinking...

I really like Agnieszka Holland - she is such a wonderful director! However, every time I watch one of her films, I get upset. This time it was "Copying Beethoven" with two of the most handsome people in the world - Ed Harris and Matthew Goode. But I was not going to write about the film.
Probably, because I spent last ten days in bed and not moving too much - I had this reflection... Every true artist is designed to be alone. I do realise it's not news for anybody. But it's just the fact that I don't quite get it. Why all these people who can see more, who can say something interesting, who have new, different opinions, they always end up alone? I don't mean lonely. There are always crowds wanting to touch them or read about them. But I mean, in their own houses, dark rooms, they cry quietly and nobody is there to give them a cuddle and say - 'yup, the world is coming to an end and god does not love you any more but it's ok, I'm here for you'. Why is the world coming to an end?... Where has god gone this time?...